When actions speaks louder than words

Just as you thought, "Oh wow this person has treated me like nobody has ever treated me before", you started observing the gestures and actions of this person to judge how much they really wanted you in their life and whether they would really treasure you like how they said they would. But we forgot something called time. You listened to their story of their past on how miserable they were and then you told yourself that "I could definitely give this person a better life". But then again, we've forgotten that time will change everything as well.

 

All the sweet talks, all the promises. Have you ever wondered how many times and to how many people this person has "recycled" that script before they used them on you to catch your heart? We're so naïve at times to believe that we're special to that someone; but actually, that person might have made every single person they've ever dated to feel that "special". They made you believe that you could count on them for the happiness you deserve but eventually crash them all over again like all the bullshit that other past relationship have given you, and surprise surprise, they started treating you like how they've treated their past as well!

 

It always started off with cotton candy fairy-tales you feel that you're living in a life of heaven in the beginning. Until you see that ride on a roller coaster over there, and you've decided to take a ride on it to realised that the roller coaster ride leads you to hell. And that's where you have to get back on your feet to climb yourself back to earth and start all over again.

 

Things on earth might remind us of the past that makes us cringe a little at times but we should not regret the different types of rollercoaster rides we've had because that serves us a lesson each time to never falling back to the same level of hell ever again.

 

And as for me, from those of my past that has been tested and proven many times, I can be the best thing that has ever happened in your life, or I could be your worse nightmare. But you're definitely gonna miss me when im gone.

 

I'll only get stronger after each experience.. With or without you, my life will still go on well. And whatever that's gonna happen in the future, i'll bear my own consequences.

 

 

 

Love,

♡ Nat